I arrived on planet earth with a passion for healing and helping people to become the best version of themselves… tho’ in that beginning it was with smiles and coos. Like everyone else I have had my share of life’s education. My particular path took me thru education thru experiences. Those began very early in my life… so early that I didn’t know what to do with trauma memories except to bury them… which I did. I consciously forgot them… but they didn’t forget me… They continued to shape my life and beliefs and responses to life’s journey.
In my 30’s, I began collecting tools for my growth. That is something I DID remember. The first tool I put in my magical tool kit was astrology, an amazing journey ensued where I studied the cycles of becoming and learned a whole new language… Next step on my journey, I began to devour books on every imaginable subject on spiritual growth and psychic development… till I begged for reprieve from the mental indigestion. What I needed was experiences to help me integrate those volumes of information. I always find it so fascinating how what we need next just shows up where ever we are. It works so beautifully! Having the experiences gave me new found-ations… I learned about crystals and how to use them in a multiplicity of ways… coloured therapy and created two different units to play and apply what I was learning… such fun!… ESP and experiments with friends… then with students. All the time stretching and growing… dreams and dreams studies, and interpretations… learning how to do dream therapy… I had people phone me and ask and was guided to present that as the next course. I was always only a few steps beyond, but as I loved to share what I know with others, they kept asking… and I kept sharing. Meditation and a study of the different brain wave frequencies had me learning ways for we westerners to arrive at the same place without doing the human pretzel thing… sorry. I mean no judgement here for those of you who can do this. I obviously couldn’t and so I had to find another way… and wouldn’t you know it… there are a lot of us out there who can’t. N.L.P. became my next study… the study of our nervous system and how we develop unique pathways for the energy to flow in our bodies… how we develop language and the deep structures unique to each one of us… communication skills… and all about belief systems and programs and how and why we develop them… and how to clear them. I also developed energy tools… and the ability to communicate with the other side and channel.
My tool bag was getting pretty full. What I hadn’t become aware of during all this time that I was collecting these tools, was that I was collecting them for my time of cocooning. My tool bag was the one thing I was allowed to take inside of the cocoon with me. On my return trip to a sacred site I became very ill with a virus… I had no idea at the time that this place of brain fog and feverish pain and memory loss would become my place of transformation. It was during the long years in that cocoon, that my subconscious mind began feeding me the memories that had been put away so long ago. I began thru the dream state to recall fragments then whole segments of a memory until I began putting them together. I travelled to sunny places trying in an attempt to heal my body with sunlight and ocean waters… but as I would go for long walks, my environment would disappear, and my mind had me travelling thru time to other places and events. At first these places seemed very disconnected… I would sit on the beach and journalize, after each experience.
I began to see threads of continuity… layer-ings of beliefs from one life to another, seeing how we created belief systems that we built onto… and tried alternate versions of… Until I finally had a very clear over view of my lives, that I now understood I had come into this lifetime to clear. It was a part of my purpose. During this time of adventures into my consciousness, I was given glimpses and one of a kind experiences that I call my mountain top views… Most recently, these views have become foundational in my awareness that we are all on a unique path to the ONE, We have all disconnected at some time and in some way and developed ego selves that have taken on the job of directing our systems. They have done a superlative job of our survival for here we are… yet they need our help in moving past the fear and mistrust… and allowing the remaining part of our journey which is to reconnect our selves and become ALL of who we really are, partnering with our Divinity and co–creating.
This is my journey… and the story of Me.
Carol Fazakas ♥